Journey to the Good Place.

Know yourself. Love yourself.

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What it is…

It’s when you look someone in the eyes and you are suddenly stunned by the feeling of a stone solid fist punching straight through your chest and then the fist opens and razor sharp talons stab into the very core of your soul. And for a moment everything is searing white and you feel as if you are the victim of a terrible accident and the only reason you’re not screaming in pain is because the shock is so far still keeping you numb. And then the haze lifts a little and the only thought in your head is that those hooks have anchored so strongly and so deeply that they are never coming out again and you will be stuck with this feeling forever: this feeling of being fractured like ice struck by a chisel; the feeling that some part of you from deep down in your very center, from a place YOU didn’t even know you had, is gone forever and has been replaced by something else, something that isn’t supposed to be there something that doesn’t fit quite right and leaves you feeling cramped and overfilled but at the same time more YOU than you ever were before. And then suddenly you realize that THIS IS IT. This is what all the songs and books and movies were talking about. This is that one pivotal thing that you spent every moment up til now waiting for, the thing that changes your life irrevocably and makes it suddenly worth living, it finally happened and you had nothing to do with it. It was always going to happen no matter what you did, no matter if you’d known it was coming and tried to avoid it it still would have happened and you’re suddenly struck by words like “destiny” and “soul mates” and as you look at this person, this STRANGER and realize that you will be looking into these eyes every day for the rest of your life and there is nothing you can do or could have done to avoid it, the only thing you can possibly say when fate looks you so squarely in the face is: “Well…..shit.”
THAT is what love is.